truth bomb

the hard truth about recovering from anorexia.

 “I no longer wear exhaustion as a badge of honor.”

                                                                  – Brene Brown

i place so much of my self-worth on my appearance, achievements, academic excellence, prestigious degrees – as if these are the only markings of success. as if a thin body and a certificate make me worthy of love.

but does anything really matter, if i’m making myself sick in doing it?

i’m not happy. in fact, i’m fucking depressed and often have thoughts that I will be stuck in this cycle of addiction and restriction and complete loneliness for the rest of my life. that I’m a failure for not finding a career path that fits or being able to feed myself 3 meals a day.

but then there is a little part of me that wonders if there isn’t more to life than what we’re told. are we born to pay bills and die?

i am constantly trying to do more, be more, achieve more in the vague hope that i’ll suddenly be happy one day. but so much of this is tied up in what i think other people expect of me.

and so, i have made the decision to step back. i’ve deferred my studies and i’m going back to live with my parents and master the art of doing absolutely nothing.

i am slowly trying to remove the guilt and shame attached to not being in melbourne, working 9-5, earning heaps of money and the praise of my peers. trying to let go of the fear that i will be judged for having a mental illness.

i want to start making time to be present.  prioritising things like reading, meditating, resting, doing yoga, taking a bubble bath, lighting candles, playing with my pets and spending time with friends.

practicing the art of just ‘being’.

my body, my mind and my spirit need time to slow down.

and there’s nothing shameful in that.

cara x

*if you or anyone you knows needs help with an eating disorder, don’t hesitate to get in contact with me or give Eating Disorders Victoria a call on 1300 550 236.

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box of bliss

it’s thursday. oh, happy days. one day until the weekend and all that.

but what makes THIS thursday extra special?

a very unexpected care package from carman’s muesli… for reference, nothing gets me going like a box of bliss balls.

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jam-packed with all the good stuff, these superfood bites are gluten-free, dairy-free and naturally sweetened with fruit.

they’re a natural pick-me-up to combat the dreaded 330itis. and with three different flavours, everyone should be able to find a healthy alternative to those left over easter eggs.

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so do yourself a favour and grab some next time you’re at the supermarket. this nutritionist (in training) approves 😉

cara x

 

 

no more bad juju

OBLIGATORY WARNING.

(if you’re a loser that’s scared of normal female bodily functions, don’t read.)

listen, peeps. i’ve started using a menstrual cup… and it’s changed my life! it’s been a little over 48 hours and i’ve already called and texted numerous gfs like some sort of crazed telemarketer.

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but i am legit THAT excited. my juju cup cost $55. it is made out of medical grade silicone and comes in a handy little travel pouch. i can leave it in for up to 12 hours at a time and no longer worry about leaking or escapee tampon strings.

still need convincing? have a look at some of this information care of juju.com.au.

  • if during your period, you use five disposable products a day for five days, this equates to 300 disposable pads or tampons a year and over 10,000 in your lifetime.
  • in one year, you will spend an average of AU$90 on disposable products.
  • by using a menstrual cup, you will help the environment by reducing landfill.

i will admit that using a cup requires some finesse and i read a pretty funny tweet that about the cavernous depths of the vagina when trying to remove it for the first time… but it gets easier and you can do it shower until you feel confident.

so, seriously, do yourself a favour and buy one. you can thank me later.

cara x

meditation

newsflash. meditation is good for us. so, why do so many of us still resist it?

i know for me, it’s got a lot to do with the fact that meditation is HARD. but like anything worth doing, meditation and mindfulness takes practice and persistence.

if you are interested in trying mediation but are not sure where to start, this video does a really good job of explaining it.

and remember, you can always hit me up in the comments for some tips and tricks.

cara x

am i a liability or are you a liar?

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This is for the women who are told that they are too much.

 

Too loud.

Too bold.

Too opinionated.

Too big.

Too small.

Too fierce.

Too bossy.

Too stubborn.

Too brazen.

Too serious.

Too confident.

Too sensitive.

Too intense.

Too bright.

Too sexual.

Too crazy.

 

And they think they can shame us,

Back into cages.

But lions can’t be kept.

And we refused to be owned.

 

Love is not subject to conditions,

And we are no subjects.

 

We are wild women.

 

– cara ’17

the problem with resolutions

new year, new you – pffft. what a crock of shit.

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instead of making a long list of life changing resolutions that you know you won’t keep, i’m asking you to make yourself a simple promise.

be happy. be grateful. be yourself.

don’t make promises to lose weight, get in shape and only eat spinach because let’s be frank… if any of this was going to happen already, it would have (and spinach is gross).

instead promise to be kind to yourself, do more of what makes you happy and laugh… lots!

whatcha reckon? i think it’s a pretty good idea and maybe even a resolution you can keep!

happy new year.

cara

twotreehouse

this is a little post about a lovely lady i came across at the recent mind/body/spirit festival in melbourne.

she makes beautiful handmade made beauty products using reusable packaging and sustainable ingredients.

as a sensitive skin sufferer. animal lover. environmental crusader…  twotreehouse products really fit the bill.

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oh! and that’s a pun. this stuff is super affordable.

the mini matchboxes (containing lip balms or beaded bracelets) are handmade at a disability centre in a small rural village in asia (stepping stone work centre) and retail from $15 for 3.

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the black soaps (activated charcoal) are vegan and perfect for both the face and body at only $7.50 a pop.

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check them out on facebook, instagram or on their website >

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https://www.instagram.com/twotreehouse/

http://www.twotreehouse.com

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i’m converted. what about you?

cara x

tinamba hotel

commonly referred to in foodie circles as a “gastropub”, tinamba hotel is gippsland’s premier dining establishment.

focusing on local produce, brad and damian have a vegetable garden out the back and favour suppliers like the maffra cheese company, avon ridge wines and cannibal creek vineyard.

open for lunch from wednesday to wunday, the two-courses for $30 – your choice of entrée and main or main and dessert with a glass of wine or beer – is standout value for food with finesse.

dinner is a fancier affair, running wednesday to saturday, offering 5 alternate entrée, main and dessert options, supplemented by seasonal specials. current menu items include a  chicken pistachio terrine with pumpkin custard and pepita crumbed camembert with pan fried ricotta gnocchi and onion jam.

it’s the little things that count and a great wine list, house made damper rolls and prompt and efficient staff set tinamba apart from being “just another pub”. chef paul van ruiten single handledly plays the crowd, catering for the fussy and the foodie alike.

although it lies somewhat off the beaten track, the tinamba hotel has no trouble drawing in crowds, looking for good food, good wine and great service.

bon appetit.

cara x

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** as featured in gippsland country life magazine, winter edition, 2015

*** edited to reflect current menu items

growing your own produce

despite the derogatory tone of the recent venture of woolworths and michelle bridges, i have decided to keep being a freak.

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that’s right, i grow my own vegetables, fruit and herbs. and my hair looks just fine, thank you very much.

i don’t quite understand why anyone wouldn’t want to grow and eat their own produce. it’s organic and pesticide free, it tastes great and you get an amazing sense of achievement whilst saving money. these are all pretty nifty things IMO.

real food doesn’t come from the freezer.

what do you guys think… offensive? hypocritical? funny? just plain stupid?

give me a holla’

cara x

chocolate crisis

cliché or no, it’s the truth – chocolate is one of life’s greatest pleasures.

but i’ve got a conscience and the more i learn about the world of chocolate the more concerned i become about the environment and the sustainability of our cocoa consumption.

as cities grow and supermarkets take over, we are more removed than ever from where our food comes from. and sadly, so is our sense of responsibility.

we don’t seem to be making the connection between the fires in indonesia and palm oil… rising chocolate prices and the cacao crisis. the very fact that WE are guilty of fueling a trade that puts the lives of animals, humans and the environment at risk.

so, what’s a chocolate obsessed, PMS crazy, nature lover to do?

ALTER ECO!!!

one of my many amazing discoveries whilst in byron bay was this brand. finally, a company that is all about ethical relationships and sustainable farming and REAL results.

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i mean, what more could you want? chocolate that is not only “nourishing for the foodie, farmer and field” but delicious and completely affordable at $5 a block.

so, do yourself a favour, next time you reach for cadbury’s, choose alter eco instead.

and when you finish it – recycle it– even the truffle wrappers are compostable!

it’s better for you. it’s better for the world.

** what’s your favourite flavour? lemme know.

cara x

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